Thursday, January 24, 2013

Plans Should Be Neatly

Hello Readers
Good Evening!!

Credit to Mr.Google.One way..

Alhamdulillah,having brighten day today. As all muslim celebrate Maulidur Rasul. Salam Maulidur Rasul. Today is pretty historic for our Prophet Nabi MUhammad S.A.W . So,let's do Selawat. As day goes by day,i'm still doesn't have any official work to do. So, just stay at home. Doing my routine. Now, i'm actively doing outdoor activity. I mean "Lepaking" at City Mall like Centre Point,Karamunsing and One borneo. Haha.. Saja jak membuang masa, tenangkan fikiran release tension dan sewaktu dengannya. Bila boring sangat duduk rumah, itu yang jadi kaki jalan . Tambah lagi, penganggur. Tapi Pengganggur yang profesional Okay..haha.. Perasanlah sangat..

Back to my Main topic. Plans should be neatly. Yeah, i've plan my own target for this year. Insyaallah, dengan izin Allah s.w.t Everything will running smoothly. I've mention to you all about the plan to go for transplant bone marrow. I've decide it and all were cancel. Now, i need to concentrate about my health. Make sure everything okay. Recently,i've done doing some procedure. Bone Marrow Aspiration to make sure no cancer cell seen. Alhamdulillah, the result really make me calm because complete remission. Means no more cancer. Even like that but i still need to care everything that related to my health. The most important is..My relationship between me and Allah s.w.t . Kena banyak berzikir,solat sunat hajat,tahajjud.Bersedekah. Dengan niat kerana Allah taala. Insyallah,you find the way. Hehe..

I've discuss with my doctor. I want to continue my study in nursing course. Only one year. Alhamdulillah,he's agree with that. Insyaallah,this coming July if there was no other obstacles i will continue. So, now i keep my routine day. Enjoy my time as much as i want because no more responsibility. Only keep focus on my health. So,just all for today. I want to play Volleyball at our residential hall. Love you all guys.. daaa...=)



Tuesday, January 22, 2013

SETIA HUJUNG NYAWA Fever

Peace Be upon You..
Dear All readers..

I'm in Love..yeah..=)
Put your hands up..who's watch this drama Akasia on tv3 "SETIA HUJUNG NYAWA".I know,mostly watch it.Dah jadi buah Mulutkan.Ngeee.. Now, i'm fever on it.Haha..Many things i learn from watching this drama. I know, this drama was adapted from Novel. Love story for young age. So,sweet. Many conflict between husband and wife. Just because the past, her husband can't accept the reality what has happened to her wife and their relationship . Zain is a sweet guy. with evertyhing happen towards him.When he know about Ersalina preggy..then,ruin everything. Their happiness. Zain treat Ersalina like rubbish.How damn him..Everyday,i never miss to watch this drama.
Till my mum said " bah,feeling habis suda bah anak mama ni" Yeah mum...well,you know me..hehe..Jiwang jugalah..bab~bab cintan cintun ni..macam saya dha yang ada kat dalam tv tu..merasa segala-segala..Ahaksss..


Then,there's a quotes that i like. It say " Tiada Manusia Suci,yang tidak mempunyai masa silam, Tiada Manusia yang berdosa yang tidak mempunyai masa hadapan". Even it just a drama. In real life, maybe some of us undergo all of this situation. No one know. But, some have that. So, don't forget to watch it. Better you all read the novel first. Then,you'll know how the story is adapted in this drama. Hehe..once i'm laughing,some scene make me feel angry,resentful. Till cry.Haha..Berfeeling habis.


Who's in love, couple,husband and wife..you should watch this drama. Then,you know "heaven" and "hell". Haha...Laughing so loud. =) 

Friday, January 11, 2013

Then,What To Do?

Peace be upon


Life without doing nothing. I mean something that make your life so hectic. Include busy working,exam or studying. While me, like i'm feel zero here. Just stay at home. From day to day. No planning. Really weird having a routine like this. Eat-Pray-Sleep-wake up. A long time ago,when i'm in hectic schedule..i really want a space for me that release me from doing anything. I mean a long rest. Like i have right now. Haha..Now,when i'm in it..Oh god, i know what i want not really good for me. I realize, i'm willing to live in all god planner than mine.


Then,what to do?so, as my circumstances not allow me to do anything. I mean working or anything else. Better i just focus on my health. This is the key for me before other thing. Yeah, enjoy my time as much as i want while not doing something heavy. Like doing something that can dispel my boredom. Novel,movie,cooking,sewing..all housewife routine..I don't know how long i could be having all of this. Haha..whatever happen..just trust and put everything to god. God Willing, i know something great waiting me. So,keep patience and never skip praying and remember Allah every moment. 

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Kisah benar tentang Hidupku

Hari ini masuk ke-8 hari kita berada dalam tahun 2013. 7 hari yang lalu terlalu banyak perkara yang datang dalam hidup kitakan. Tak kiralah pahit manis. Semuanya menjadi pengalaman kita. Mesti you all naik heran plak entry saya kali ini dalam Malay. Saja tukar hangin..hehe..Lgpun english sy takdalah mantap sangat. Biasa je. Bagi budak tahun 1 baca pon, mereka dha boleh faham. Takpalah, apa bahasa pon kita guna yang penting kita enjoylah kan. Actually, banyak benda nak kongsi ni. Saya tak kesah pon share something yang privacy dalam hidup ni. I mean, tak semualah nak share. Macam yang korang tahukan..entry sebelum ni,say a bagi tahu korang saya ni sakit. Sakit bukan biasa-biasa. Macam demam, makan panadol. Okay dha lepas tu.Huh,,nak seek attentionlah tu . Saya bukan nak minta perhatian taw..hehe..takdalah..kita share ney. yang mana korang rasa elok,ambikla ye..yang tak elok tu.Abaikan..

Kemarin,saya review. Jumpa ngan pakar haematologi. sebelum ni,doktor ada plan untuk saya,buat transplant tulang sum-sum. Means, nak tukar sum-sum tulang yang saya ada sekarang ni dgn orang lain. Bukan orang lain pun penderma saya. Adik saya sendiri. Syukur alhamdulillah, terima kasih Allah. Susah nak cari penderma sebenarnya,kira untunglah ada yang sama dengan adik beradik sendiri. Tapi kan...masalahnya..
Hmmm..SAYA TAK NAK BUAT TRANSPLANT.Doktor pun terus diam dengan apa yang saya decide ni. Then, doktor ckp..kalau saya tak buat transplant..potensi untuk penyakit datang balik sangatttt lah tinggi. Lagipun doktor kata..penyakit saya ni..jenis yang ganas..nampak sgt ada kedegilan dia..So,transplant adalah jalan terbaik. Tapi....doktor kata..dia tak jaminlah 100% yang penyakit saya takkan balik lagi. Doktor kata lagi, memanglah buat transplant ni..ada risikonya. Dalam 10 orang yang pergi mungkin 2-3 orang je yang berjaya. Kalau anda berada ditempat saya,apa pilihan korang akan buat. Setuju tak kalau ikut apa yang doktor plan???

Apa pun keadaan, saya bersyukur sangat sebab ALLAH s.w.t bagi saya peluang untuk hidup. Memperbaiki hubungan dengannya. Everything happen for a reason. Alhamdulillah, penyakit saya buat masa ni memang dha complete remision. Saya rasa okay. Badan taklah lemah. Rasa lebih bersemangat lagi dari keadaan yang sebelum ni. So,macamna dengan keputusan saya tentang transplant tu. Setuju ke tak. Tetap jawab saya. TAK SETUJU...tahu tak kenapa??sebab saya rasa badan saya ni dha tak cukup kuat untuk melalui chemotherapy. Hanya Allah saja yang tahu bagaimana rasa sengsaranya kena melepasi segala cabaran ni. 

Lagipun,saya berpegang dengan kata-kata "Sesunguhnya,tiada penyakit didunia ini yang tidak boleh dirawat melainkan maut". Apapun keadaan, apa yang kita miliki didunia ni..hanyalah bersifat sementara. Tak kekal. Semuanya hanya milik Allah s.w.t. So,banyak lagi ikhtiar lain selain dari buat transplant. Pernah saya terbaca satu buku,tentang rawatan penyakit kanser ni. Kadangkala, terover dose terima rawatan pun boleh menyebabkan maut. Memang Allah s.w.t sudah menetapkan ajal maut kita masing-masing. Tapi tanggungjawab kita menjaga diri kita ni,apa yang Allah pinjamkan dengan kita. Semua memang menjadi tangungjawab kita untuk menjaganya dengan sebaik-baiknya.Sebab tu kita dikurniakan akal fikiran dan hati untuk memilih jalan yang betul.

Bukan saya tak percaya dunia perubatan moden. Saya hargai usaha doktor-doktor yang banyak beri bantuan untuk merawat saya.Alhamdulillah,sekarang memang penyakit tu dha takda. Saya letakkan segala-galanya dengan Allah.Hanya Allah yang menyembuhkan. Minta dengan Allah,agar saya dipanjangkan umur. Bukan untuk mengejar keseronokkan di dunia ni.Tapi banyak perkara yang belum saya pelajari, masih perlu masa untuk memperbanyakkan amalan. Saya bukanlah alim sangat, tapi berusaha memperbaiki hidup di jalan yang Allah redhai memang inilah yang saya nak sangat. So,walaupun saya tak ikut plan doktor nak buat transplant tu.Saya masih tak putus-putus meneruskan usaha lain. Sekarang banyak benda saya kena jaga. Untuk elak penyakit berulang lagi. Saya yakin sangat dengan kuasa Allah. Insyaallah, Allah akan berikan yang lebih baik dari apa yang saya inginkan. Yang penting,perlu banyakkan bersabar. Solat tak tinggal. Banyakkan solat sunat,solat hajat,tahajjud. Insyaallah,Allah sentiasa ada disamping orang-orang yang sentiasa berusaha memperbaiki amalannya..

Fuhh,panjangnya entry kali ni.Sebab tu saya tak suka buat entry dalam Malay. Ayat berjela-jela..bosan orang nak bacakan..hehe..Apapun..saya hargai korang yang sudi baca entry saya ni.Yang sudi nak komen bagi support,pandangan semua..saya hargai anda sangat-sangat. 

Love you all..=)

Friday, January 4, 2013

Random Scribbles



Keep wondering with everything that come into my life
Bitter or sweet
but all doesn't have specific answer
speechless is i am to be

sometimes in tragedy
i found life's purpose
life isn't limitless
As all simply say
"Sometime you have to forget what's gone
 Appreciate what still remains
 And look forward to what is coming next"

We all have our own book of life
 We're just trying to find someone
 who can read it, understand it, or help us to finish writing it
I learn with everything that come into my life
There is something i
 can't fix, can't heal, or can't escape, 
and all that i can do is trust God.


Tuesday, January 1, 2013

The beginning of 2013

Hello everyone..

with one love.one world.welcome to NEW YEAR 2013!!!!


First January, it's my first entry on this new year. i'm welcoming 2013. Last night, on 11.59 PM the last thing that crossed in my mind on year 2012 was dreaming having a full blast life on 2013. Insyaallah, with all god permission everything will be fullfill on this year. Amin..Hopefully, may Allah give me the sweetest gift into my life after a year before i'm having all the bitter that ruin all my plan. I never despair with all of this.Otherwise, i'm really grateful because Allah choose me to have all the most painful things. Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah i still have a chance to have my life. I have a chance to improve my relationship with god. Gratitude to Allah.

So, for this year. All plan were neat and just wait the time to realize all the things. Eventhough we all having a life in the same year but our fortunes all are different. Just plan what we want but Allah has power to predetermine all of our dream and wishes. Let's pray to Allah, may everything would be accomplished. Okay dear all readers and viewers. HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013. Hope this year be nice to us, bring more happiness and may god blessed all of us. Amin.