Dear all readers and viewers..i'd want to share something that hidden deep from my heart.I don't think it was my privacy story.Sharing is better then.Sometimes,to keep it so long without no sense to say,make it so complicated.I've dream as others.I hope it will become true.Just need a time to achieve everything.But,it changed suddenly out of my expected.This year 2012..grabbed me into a dark memories that i'll ever forget.It crushing my heart.Make me feel lonely indeed.
At the end of March,i've diagnosed Acute Myeloid Leukimia.Oh god!It make me down to hear this news.Its hard for me to believe.Before this,i'm having a nice life with a good health.I'm just crying to accept the fact.Yes!i have a feeling to give up.Why god choose me to get all this condition.?Why Me!!Dear readers..i'm really so frust.Anyway,when i'm thinking again..maybe before this i've done something worst thing in my life and didn't realize about it.Till now,god give me challenges,and confront it alone.Everything happen,have a reason.I'm just strong..be strong..>.<
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So,i need to be strong.never stop prayingNow,i'm under the treatment.I've already done the 2nd cycle chemotherapy.I've through all the complication.Don't know how to explain,but i can say it so hard for me.When i'm sitting alone in this ward..I would like to release everything and just want to focus towards my health.
I'm suffer to my condition.People at the outside..have enjoy their daily life.While,i'm here just wait something hopeful.I keep my mind in a calmness.Breath with full of serenity.That is the reality of suffering.It so universal.How we react to suffering is individual.It can take us one of two ways.That sure is..it can be strengthening and puryfing combined with faith,or it can be destructive force in our lives,if we do not have the faith in the lord's atoning sacrifice.So,the purpose of suffering,however,is to build and strengthen us.