Reality In my Life

Peace be upon you..

Dear all readers and viewers..i'd want to share something that hidden deep from my heart.I don't think it was my privacy story.Sharing is better then.Sometimes,to keep it so long without no sense to say,make it so complicated.I've dream as others.I hope it will become true.Just need a time to achieve everything.But,it changed suddenly out of my expected.This year 2012..grabbed me into a dark memories that i'll ever forget.It crushing my heart.Make me feel lonely indeed.

At the end of March,i've diagnosed Acute Myeloid Leukimia.Oh god!It make me down to hear this news.Its hard for me to believe.Before this,i'm having a nice life with a good health.I'm just crying to accept the fact.Yes!i have a feeling to give up.Why god choose me to get all this condition.?Why Me!!Dear readers..i'm really so frust.Anyway,when i'm thinking again..maybe before this i've done something worst thing in my life and didn't realize about it.Till now,god give me challenges,and confront it alone.Everything happen,have a reason.I'm just strong..be strong..>.<

semangat kena kuat!!

So,i need to be strong.never stop prayingNow,i'm under the treatment.I've already done the 2nd cycle chemotherapy.I've through all the complication.Don't know how to explain,but i can say it so hard for me.When i'm sitting alone in this ward..I would like to release everything and just want to focus towards my health.

I'm suffer to my condition.People at the outside..have enjoy their daily life.While,i'm here just wait something hopeful.I keep my mind in a calmness.Breath with full of serenity.That is the reality of suffering.It so universal.How we react to suffering is individual.It can take us one of two ways.That sure is..it can be strengthening and puryfing combined with faith,or it can be destructive force in our lives,if we do not have the faith in the lord's atoning sacrifice.So,the purpose of suffering,however,is to build and strengthen us.

Known

Hii dear all readers and viewers..

I come here with mixed language..it's ok kan..y penting jiwa is always 1 Malaysia.Hehe..

This is the fact about someone life..Just read..maybe this is kinda bored monologue..that come from the writer..I hope everyone can understand it..

 Ketahuilah...

✿Seseorang yang sentiasa tersenyum riang di hadapanmu,
 ketahuilah dia sering menyapu air matanya tatkala sendirian....

✿ Seseorang yang sentiasa menyuntik

 kata-kata semangat dan peransang kepadamu,

 ketahuilah tatkala itu dia sedang menyulam hatinya yang retak seribu....

✿Seseorang yang sentiasa kelihatan kuat di hadapanmu, 

ketahuilah dialah yang sentiasa mengadu lemah di hadapan Penciptanya...

✿ Seseorang yang ketawanya menceriakan harimu, 
ketahuilah tatkala itu dia sedang membalut luka di dadanya..

p/s : Dia sentiasa cuba untuk bangkit, cuba untuk kuat, cuba untuk kembali, cuba untuk tabah dan yang pasti dia mampu untuk kembali gembira dan bahagia seperti insan lain..♥

Nice Rules

Hello everyone..

Currently,i'm in haematology ward..I'm feel bored here.I don't know what i'm going to do,i'm just only under the doctor observation for the post chemo.My blood result not so good.Fortunately,i'm afebrile.Today,the doctor have planning to tranfuse platelet for me coz it so low may cause bleeding.Dear all friend,just pray for me yaa.Hope so i'll get well soon.I need to be strong enough to through all of this.=)

So,here i want to share something that we all can apply in our daily life.It just a golden rules attitude which is very useful for us yaa..=)

If you do good to other,You will do good to yourself

Do evil to other,you wiil do evil to yourself

Be Means to others,they will be mean to you

Be courteous to others,they will courteous to you

Be rude to others,they will be rude to you

Be Friendly to others,they will be friendly to you

Be Hostile to others,they will be hostile to you

Have Respected for others,they'll have respect for you

Be kind to others,they will kind to you

I Miss U Dear

                                                                              

 Hello readers and viewers..

Thanks for coming..and leave a comment.I'll hit u all back.

I'm feel lonely just now.I miss him.I'm soory dear.coz stick your formal photo here.Hehe.It nice for me.=)

He's funny...

He's adorable...

He's Sweet..

He's loving...

He's Awesome..

I love the way he can make me feel safe, love and wanted, even when he's thousands of miles away.

More about him..

i love him because he's the type of guy that would laugh when i fall, help me up, and when I'm just about to cry whisper in my ear its OK baby I've got U..hehe..*Sweet..=)

When I miss him.. I go through all our old messages because it re-mind's me that he love  me..

When I'm upset about something. I text him and he always seem to put me in a better mood..=)

           

Ok la guys..hehe..here is only just like online diary.Whatever we feel..just write.You feel better then.=)I'm sorry if i'm in Jiwang mood.Hehehe..The photo that i'd stick on the top..so great to see.I love it..Rose so romantic yaa..hehe..

Memories Baking Cake

Hye guys..

Looking forward to my entry today..

Everything is about my memories during baking a cake.I love cooking,baking and so on.The most important is activity in a kitchen.Just give it to me.=)Yummy..satisfy with our work.I'm sure one day,if my health already stable i'll cooking again.Not just for me,but for people around me..Family,boyfie and friend!Hehe.I know i can't buy a talent.But,i'm pretty sure with more practice and experience will become a talent.Actually,i've many more story that i want to share to u all especially recipes.I've learnt and tried many.

Yummy...ready to serve..=)

Suddenly,i want to look back once again this memories.=)My boyfiee ask me to bake a cake for him.I'm sorry my dear,my condition just now doesn't allow me to do so.I know he understand me.So,pity.I'm sure i'll bake a cake for him but soon.=)

Chocolate cake is the one of my favorite recipes.Idon't like to eat a cake.Coz it so sweet.Huhu.But,my hobby bring me indeed.Dear readers.. if god give one day for us to meet.i'll give my homemade cake to u all as a gift of our friendship.

Ety's Reserved

Hii..

Dear all readers and viewers..

May u all have a nice weekend..=)

I'd talked that i'm thinking about creating my own template.Finally,i've already finished complete it.Even it so simple,but make me gratify indeed.I'm prefer combination of pink and white color in my template theme.This is my favorite color.Hehe.So,how about u all..i know u all are more pro.Hehe.Anyway,the important thing is we enjoy the way we are.

This is my new header,that i created.More related to my blog title.Hehe..Sweetheart.=)

Finally,i've complete my own blog template.simple.Cool.=)

So,before i'm going to readmit back to ward.I'm delighted to be here to make some post.Actually,after i'm accept the fact,i need to through all of this fate confidently.I've learning more about life.Everyday we live,love is need.Do small things with great love and you'll make a big difference.For me,everyway I were..I'm hold on all the things that make me happy and let go of things that make me sad!I Never blame any day in my life,because Good days give me happiness,Bad days give me experience,Worst days give me a lesson.I'm just enjoying the moment, and enjoying whatever, come what may. And whatever will be, will be. Most off all, I'm happy...=)

Be Postive (B+)

Hello everyone...

How are u all today?I hope so far so good yaa..

Now,i'm thinking about creating my own blog template.I'm going to upgrade my site with my own way.Sometimes using the old one make me bored.Hehe..So,creating something new is need for more improvement.Even my health not so in good condition,but it doesn't meant restrain  my life as usual.I'm always think positively.I know everything that happen towards me have a reason.May god bless me in anything.

Thanks also to my family,my boyfiee,my friends because always giving me emotional support and not stop to pray for my health.I'd cherish everyone.May u all also lived happily and having a good healthy.

Fate..I'm Strong!

Hii everybody...

Peace Be Upon u all...

So long i'm not update any post here..the last post was on february.My life so busy with my course.So,I can't fill up anything here..this is my first time that make me not to be herein. Now,we are in the month of May.Many things that happen in my life.Either Bitter or sweet i'm just strong to confront it.I don't know what condition I were now..Sometimes I'm feel lonely to through it.I know this is not good to have feeling like that.coz whatever we are..god always beside us..and hear us..Now,I'm in a big trouble.That make my life..stop for a while from achieve my goal.Just like i'm on my way writing all about my life in a book.But,suddenly stop in a middle.Nevermind..I know i'm strong to confront it,and confidently continue writing all about the things that come into my life.Even it bitter so.

I hope i’m get blessed with enough patience to stay and enough strength to move on.I’m grateful coz everyone around me always pray for me.Every drop of my tears,deep in my heart shout that i’m a strong person but every now and then  I also need someone to take my hand and say everything will be alright.

It so hard to accept the fact..but,must be strong and accept all of this is the fate from god.Everything that happen,have a reason...I'm strong..to accept it.

Condition I were

Hello there..

Huhu..this weekend so dull..for me.I didn't going hang out..with my friend.I'm not feeling well just now.I don't know what the problem  that affect my health.I've chest pain and lower back ache.Em,i just relax to through it even this is too serious and hard for me.

Forget about that,so i want to continue about other things.I just can't wait to have my semester break in this first of march.Only one week,it  too short right?..nevermind,i'll fill up it with a lot of things.This two days i'll have night duty.Huhu..Hope so on that night,no sleeping beauty.=)

p/s >.< Been All over the world..=)enjoy everything..cheerful..=)

Happy Engagement!

Hii everyone..

Today in my blog wall..i want to share something about my friend's wonderful day.

Last two week ago,on 4th February i'd attend Puteri Nurakmaliyani Shakira engagement day with her lovely future husband Fendy.well,Whenever we attend an engagement day, you will definitely feel that love is in the air. This feeling is felt by everyone, simply because of the engaged couple.It will be always nice for both of you to receive engagement gift with greeting and wishes that are really witness as the love grows deeper.So,here i greet and wish for engaged couple...

“As both of you look forward to wedding day, may your love be the reminder of the joy that lies ahead. Happy Engagement!”

“You’re engaged…

For all of your lives,

May you find in each other.

The friend of your heart…

The joy of your world…

The love of your life!”

“Marriage is not only the beginning of a beautiful relationship but also the end of a life long search for the other half of your soul.”

I'm so happy when this part .Hehe..Excited yaa..as the mother in law touch your hand to wear a gold ring that definitely change your status.=)so,dear my lovely friend Puteri Nurakmaliyani Shakira .God makes way for the both of you to find each other. May you get married without any trouble and have a bright future ahead of you.

 An engagement is the moment between two persons that makes them truthfully realize how significant they are to each other. This is the time to cherish. My Best Wishes are given to you. Have a very great life ahead.May your engagement be the foundation of a lifetime of happiness together.Ameen~ Congratulations!Puteri Nurakmaliyani Shakira Binti Jasirah.

Fill in The Blank

Hii everyone,

Everything that i wrote here and stick here..just want to fill the blank af my blog.Hehe..

Thanks because still view it.Appreciate everything that come from you all.=)So,i put a quotes that i really love..for remind each of us..yaa..Take it as positive thing in our life.

There is no happiness except in 

the realization that 

we have accomplished something.

The whole of life is but a moment of time. 

It is our duty,

 therefore to use it,

 not to misuse it.

Everything Is Okay

Hello dear readers and viewers

Peace Be upon u all..

Prolonged not being here..just like leave something gloomy here,Oh..em,i'm really busy just now.Final year in my course getting me into depression.Hehe..Today i'd went to library with my member.Finding journals for our research.It so difficult for us to find article related to our research.Even we all feel like this,this condition not easily bring me to despair.Confidence can overcome everything.So,even i'm busy with my task and so on that related to my student life,i still stand-walk smoothly,confident and sometimes run to gain and achieve everything.Only with the sunshine of life,everythings gonna be okay.=)

So,I hope keep a better life.Then,pray also for our life,may god give us a good life and everything will be okay!..Ameen~

Fragrance

Hello readers and viewers..

How are you all?Enjoy your weekend yaa...Huhu..

This month totally tied myself with task that burdening me at all.Sometimes,like i feel losing something that entertained me a lot.I just can hold myself tightly,drive on trustworthy that i can through all of this with confidently.I just can't wait to end up everything and make the time run faster.=)

When you all looking forward into this site,nothing new post i've write.Hehe,because my time hesitate me to do so.

Here is nothing new story i want to share with you all.Just a little thing about girls life.Well,as you all know,even girl or men,perfume is compulsory in life.I've tried so many perfume that leave a scent from my nose and deep to myheart,influence me indeed.Until now,i never change my perfume since i got a new one,that hit me entirely.Hehe..It make me so fresh and giving me a confident to through all the day.So,this is the one thing that i never forget to bring along with me. The Enchanteur Paris Belle Amour .

'A perfume is like a piece of clothing, a message, a way of presenting oneself ... a costume ... that differs according to the woman who wears it"

Brain sleep

WHAT?!!

Hii everyone

I'm sorry because since this month,i'm start with my new semester,most of my time full with assignment and the busiest one that blend in my time is thinking and finding out  a title for my group research.I think,this is my challenge in this semester.I hope i've free spirit and strong enough to through all of this condition.

Recently,my laptop was formatted,because some of problem,i don't know what,hehe..fortunately,now it function better with new window 7.Em,sometime i'm lying down,like i feel something that i can't express in word because all of that is feeling.I don't know what the term for this.Maybe i'm thinking so deep.In lecture hall,my eyes focus on the lecturer slide but my brain sleep.Haha.What kind of this yaa guys..hehe..I hope all of this not bring me down.

Okay guys,just all i want to write.Now,i need to prepare myself,especially my brain for the next lesson.=) 

Greater Pleasure in 2012

NEW YEAR 2012 EVE!!

Hye everyone..

First of all..

Thanks to all my readers and viewers until the end of year,you all always espouse my blog.Despite it rarely or a great deal,i'm so delighted and apprise it.

Aigoo..!!By the way,New year 2012 eve.And entirely,i'm commence thinking about transformation.well,whether we realize it or not,time leaving us so fast.

All the things we went through along this awesome 2011 conserve it as reminiscence.It so worth,Either the matter is the good,the bad and the weird,entirely god bestowed me a joy and felicity on my way.It is difficult for me not to believe that the next year will be better than the old one! And this illusion is not wrong. Future is always good, no matter what happens. It will always give me what I need and what I want in secret. It will always bless me with right gifts. Thus in a deeper sense our belief in the New Year cannot deceive us.So,for the greater pleasure in 2012.

I wish.....I should breathe and live in 2012 by:

♥More advance and be mature in all matters

♥Heeding all challenges with esteem confidence

♥ignore all matter ridiculous

♥complete driving course successfully and get license <P>

♥Polish all of my passion

♥don't choose a wrong way until destroy my ability

♥have resolution to remedy all weakness

♥Never trying something useless and that'll be worsened my life(T.T)
♥Deeper enthusiasm to achieve my goal

I'm so grateful and delighted in this awesome 2011.All of us through it all very well.we have done what we could — some blunders and absurdities have crept in. Forget them as soon as we can. Tomorrow is a new day.we shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit and don't get  encumbered with old nonsense.Without look back on the things that worsened and hurting us,may we have a greater pleasure in this 2012.Get a fresh start in this year.All of us will open a book.Its pages are blank.We are going to put words on them ourselves.Write it on your heart that everyday is the best day in the year.The book i better called as"opportunity".

Let it begin!!

♥HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012♥

FACT ABOUT LOVE!

Hello my lovely readers and viewer..

What actually,the fact blending about love?

So,let me tell you all deep inside from my heart..without writing a lot of matter here..i want you all just interpret about it from a photo that i stick here,=)haha..no matter i want talk about..because it's of course dead love indeed!

The fact is...

P/s To my dear M.Isthanny you know what..?!When you not here..I want you to know beside you is where I belong.=)

Learning Driving

Dear readers and viewers..

What you have today?Hope you all satisfied enjoying your day yaa..

Today i'm feel so tired.Huhu..My semester break now,i already have planned to fill it by learning driving.Anyway,i'm just start it today.Thanks god,i already pass the time.Along 5 hours i had seated the theory KPP.So,next will be computer test.I hope i can get excellent mark.The tutor said for passing the test i need to pass and get 42/50 and above.In percent among 84 %.Next week,on tuesday..insyaallah,when i'm get myself in all preparation i'll sit the computer test.Hope you all pray for me yaa...Thank you..=)

First of all,i want to thankful to my dad because he have sponsoring all the payment for this.I just can't wait to finish all the session.Hehe.Then,i can drive myself anyway i want.Hoho..

Broken A thousand!

Hii readers and viewer..

I'm coming back herein my lovely blog..My holiday pack with free time.Fortunately,busy not fully control me.Even i'm busy as housewife partime.Hehe.Now,i'm going to singing my favorite song from shila Amzah..em,it's title actually in malay langguage is PATAH SERIBU.when it translate,it's being Broken A thousand.=)It just for fun yaa guys.I'm singing this song by playing my guitar.

p/s just for fun filling my free time..=)

Endless Love

Hello readers and viewers..

Wow!My title today say something touching.It is about love.As long as we all falling in love with someone we ever meet.Almost of us always blow a promise to our lovely sweetheart.Actually,honestly deep from my heart i'm totally afraid to blow a promise to my love not because  i'm not confident with our relationship but i don't want to hurt my only one and me too..Everything that i've through along with him i'm appreciate it.I know this is a fate indeed.What i've write on here just for my special one Mr.Isthanny,em,i'm not often write about him in my blog.I don't know how to explain about him in a simple words.Only him know me how much i love him.So,i want to share a thousand years lyrics.That i can't explain in my simple words about it.All this lyrics just like my feeling.It's inspired me a lot.=)

 the endless possibilities of love and for love!

Heartbeats fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave

How can I love when I’m afraid to fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I’ll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still

Beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything take away

What’s standing in front of me

Every breath

Every hour has come to this

One step closer

Makeup and photography!

Hello readers and viewers

have a nice december yaa!!=)..

Today,it'll blending about makeup and photography.This is always include in a girl list.I love both of this.Even i'm not always to use makeup.But i love tryout makeup to other,i know i'm not  pro as ""MAK ANDAM outside there.=)It just my hobby and i make it in a simple and satisfy way. Em,yesterday i had spent my time with my two sister.I just want to try out my makeup way to them.It just simple.Well,during this school break,we have free time to enjoy it.So,let it go and enjoy as much as you want ..=)I'm sorry guys..i don't want you all thinking that i'm too showy about that.It just for fun and my hobby.In a photography,I love to capture potrait type.Coz it show the natural looking inside the photo.Em,without wasting time i'm stick all the photo that i'd took yesterday.I hope you all enjoy to see that.

p/s  Both of them are my sister..WINNIE and ZIZIE..=)